i have been a terrible lj friend. i am so sorry.

i made a new lj account, and i'm gonna make it friends-only. i'm gonna work on it over the summer, try to make it better than this one, and start fresh.

hopefully a prettier lj will make me motivated to post more.

i hope hope hope hope.

i treasure all of my lj friends, so bear with me, mmkay? :3 i'm not as much of a dick as i appear to be; first year of college kills.

i can do this.

I love my life.

Find the one thing about this page that grates on my last nerve, and you win a treat.

I haven't neglected LJ or anyone on it, I swear! I've just had to adjust to, uh, college and all.

Hopefully, I can post as much as I'd like, so we'll see how that goes.







I kinda want a paid account again. D: I had one, and then it expired. I was trying to upload a HeeChul (from SuJu) layout today, and I couldn't get it to work for the life of me, and I think it was because I have this stupid account with ads everywhere.

Oh well. I'll manage; it just gets aggravating.

College. I am at it.















Yeah, I know.

This past weekend, I was down in Baltimore for Otakon! It was what I expected it to be, so I don't necessarily think it was "the best Otakon EVERRRRR!!1!" as it was advertised, but I still had a lot of fun. I cosplayed both Friday and Saturday ('Hellsing' on Friday and 'Death Note' on Saturday) and spent most of Sunday in the Dealers' Room.

My three friends and I actually had a hotel room this time (we stayed in the Inner Harbor Marriot), and it was really convenient, but I lost A LOT of money on food because we ate out at expensive restuarants every night. D: I still got all the stuff I had my eye on in the Dealers' Room, though, so it's all good.

Overall, I just wished I had gone to more panels instead of just walking around cam-whoring, and I have yet to be to a Masquerade or a concert. I'll get to those in the future, though, definitely.

I was dead-tired on Sunday when I finally got home, but I still gathered enough energy to go over my friend Chris' house and play DDR for two hours straight. We also watched the Olympics; we were right up on the TV for the Phelps relay-race that night (where France almost won, IT WAS SO INTENSELY CLOSE). I'm going over again tonight to watch more Olympic stuff since we both like all the events on tonight (diving, more swimming, gymnastics, and a little bit of volleyball), and we plan on ordering food and just being lards on the couch in front of his big-screen TV (score!).


Other than all that, I started my definitions this morning for my Humanities Seminar this fall. I ranted like a beast when defining my personal thoughts on "art". Wow, I never knew I could rant so much when I was limited to only a paragraph.



Also. This is of high importance: what happened to my rainbow, sparkly, shiny, flamboyant, fabulously gay Arashi??!!

They went from prancing on rainbows and having gay buttsex to emo-ing in front of an orchestra. WHAT THE EFF, ARASHI, WHAT THE EFF. Drastic major to minor key leap much?






On the other hand, I absolutely adore this new song. I love the strings and the way lines overlap with one another. Squee.

I do not wish to be, have never wished to be, will never wish to be, and am not wishing to be Asian. Okay?

I may like Japanese and Korean music, watch anime, read manga, and say random things like "Herro." and "Did you rike it?", but this is all a part of who I am now, a white girl named Alyson that lives in Maryland in the United States.

If you don't like it, get over it. I am who I am.










I get pissed whenever anyone questions my identity, obviously, or thinks I want to be anything else but myself.



Owari. ^^



Edit: I NEED A MOVING ICON OF 2:09-:10 FROM THIS MV RIGHT NOW, AND I AM DYING OF FANGIRL LOVE, AND LEETEUK IS FRICKIN' AMAZING, AND I AM BEING SUCH A FANGIRL RIGHT NOW, AND I CANNOT STOP WATCHING THAT SINGLE SECOND, SOMEBODY HELP ME.

A weekend spent in Virginia, and now I come home and wish to read deep into the night. Yayz.


I must get Internet-trolling in sometime beforehand, though. And score, we are cooking out tonight. :DV



Ugh, I also just tried to go to the Goodwill for some Otakon stuff, and LO AND BEHOLD, it is closed because of an annual barbecue.


My life.



Tomorrow should be good, though. I plan on staying up really late reading (and maybe finishing, yeah right) 'The Host' and then starting 'Breaking Dawn.' I'll try and hit up Goodwill for what I need tomorrow morning; then I get to go canoe-ing in the afternoon, and I'm spending the night at Stacey's. :3

Oh summer, why must you fly by?




Ugh, every time I watch the 'Dreams come true' PV, I squee at Yuto's adorable-ness (he's 15 in a week~!) when he's hula-hooping (and throughout the whole thing, basically), and then I wish to hula-hoop but we don't have one. WHAT. IS. THIS. BLASPHEMY.

Nakajima Yuto, the hold you have over me. It's exactly like that time with HeeChul in the 'U' MV, but Heechul is exactly a month and ten years older than Yuto.

Once again, my life.






5 DAYS UNTIL OTAKON.

Wow, today has been a really off day for me. I feel almost removed from myself.

Ugh.

I am so excited for Otakon. :D My brother just stated that he will definitely come again as Near (from 'Death Note') and, along with his friends who he will be riding with that day, my
'Death Note' group will consist of L, Raito, Mello, Near, Matsuda, Matt, Misa, Mikami, and hopefully, a Ryuk. I AM SO EXCITED. 10 DAYS.



So yesterday was Alyssa's kung-fu tournament; I had to get up at 5:30AM! :o It was an international tournament, though, and it was so close to us! At one point, Alyssa, Laura, and I were speaking English, some guys next to us were speaking Chinese, and some guys in front of us were speaking Portuguese (they were from Brazil)! It was also awesome to see all the different weapons that were used in various forms. I really liked the chain whip.

Anyway, I have videos of Alyssa and her partner/friend completing their form together, Alyssa and her partner/friend sparring against one another, and then Alyssa getting her medal. :3 I'm gonna put those up on FaceBook soon.

The day was really long, though; I didn't get home until 5:30PM! I was SO TIRED, so I didn't do much when I got home, and I ended up going to sleep for the night at 8PM!!



Had to get up early today (AGAIN) to go to the doctor's and get my ears cleaned out. D:< I'll spare the details because it was kinda nasty, but at least I feel a lot better now. Maybe I'll even talk softer, but my dad says I have a naturally projecting (read: loud and obnoxious) voice, so who knows?


Caitlin and I went over Laura's this morning/afternoon to work on Otakon stuff (yes, we procrastinate, shut), and Caitlin cut out parts of a bed-sheet for me to sew into gloves for me and Alyssa (for our 'Hellsing' day), and Laura and I attempted to style my Dok wig, but it didn't quite work. D:

Home now. Sitting here. Oh joy. I have to go to the pharmacy later to get my prescribed ear-drops so I don't get an infection from my cleaning. :DV




Edit: This is the website for the hotel me, Laura, Caitlin, and Alyssa will be staying at the evening of August 7th to the afternoon of August 10th (word up to n0style, paperplacebo, and plants4tre). :3

I'm gonna have to watch HanKyung carry the torch on the TV there, LOLZ. (His days are August 6th-8th, right?)

I honestly haven't really done anything fandom-related recently besides watch the Super Junior relay talks off of their second album... :/



Uhm, this morning I slept until my cousins and aunt left, and then I ate some Lucky Charms (<3) and went on the Internet and read 'Language Myths'. Blah, blah, normal stuff.

Around 3PM, my friend, Gabrielle, came to fetch me, and we spent the afternoon/evening together (I hadn't seen her since my birthday party in early June). We went and saw 'Mamma Mia' (I had seen the Broadway play in mid-April, and it was interesting to see how the movie compared). Then we got some food at Wendy's and went to mini-golf. We fooled around on the easy course and didn't keep score whatsoever. :D We then went to the Artic Circle, an ice-cream place near the mini-golf course, and she got an ice-cream cone, and I got a milkshake. We walked around a while, and then I tried batting cages for the first time in my life, LULZ. We then golfed the harder course, and we discussed real-life drama issues while we putted this course, and it was surprisingly really easy to open up to Gabrielle.

We then went to Rita's a little down the road, and she got a mango-thing, and I was too full from my shake to get anything. We went to a playground and sat on the swings and discussed more real-life drama stuff, and it reminded me a lot of a JDrama: two girls swinging as the sun sets with little kids frolicking around while discussing various issues. :3 However, the swings made us a little nauseous because we had been eating so much, and we kinda just sat and twirled around rather than swinging really high and all.

Exhaustion hit us, and Gabrielle dropped me off around 9PM with promises to meet again before I move off to college. We're going to get in her pool this time, which we were going to do today before my ovaries decided to ruin our plans. D:

All in all, a very nice day. ^_^ I'm pretty tired now, and I may drink some tea and read SuJu fanfiction, maybe watch some 'Honey and Clover' before going to bed. I have Alyssa's kung-fu tournament in Hunt Valley all day tomorrow to watch (Laura and I are going!), and I can't wait to watch her "perform", so I want to be awake/not tired to pay attention!







And LOLWTF, my brother is taking a bath. You would have to live with us to understand how odd this is. It amuses me.

I'm gonna rant.




( Fandom rant. )


( Real-life rant. )

I woke up late today (as usual), and maybe twenty minutes after I got up, my dad decided to take me, my brother, and my cousin (who's visiting us) on a hike to explore an abandoned mansion. I had been wanting to see this mansion for awhile, and I was all excited. The thing is, we're not allowed near it at all because it is someone else's property.

The entire car ride to the woods where we would hike had my dad giving the three of us a briefing of what we would do if we saw someone or if they saw us (namely, run like the wind down the hill leading to the river, where we would no longer be on the property).

So we park, we hike (up a beast hill, may I add, ugh), and we make it to a field that we're gonna cross to get to this mansion. The four of us are looking all around us as we cross because we're right out in the open, and my dad had mentioned shot-guns earlier (teasingly, of course, but the idea was there). We finally reached the other side, and we gathered behind a group of trees, and my dad said we were gonna wait for at least two minutes and then start moving slowly.

A few seconds into our two minutes of waiting, we heard a loud barking. All of us tensed, and I was watching my dad, and I had never seen him look as panicked as he did there. (We had been joking about being chased by dogs earlier in the car, and yeah. D:) We then saw a black dog appear right before us, and he was soon joined by three more (one white, two black, yeah, I stared for a minute), and then the four of us turned and calmly walked off. I kept putting my arm in front of my cousin and telling him not to run because that would make the dogs run after us, and so we quickly walked across the field (I was last because I kept staring back at the dogs watching us), and when we got out of their sight, we all bolted for the woods. We got back in, walked a little way, and then went back to the edge to see if the dogs had alerted our presence to anyone. They hadn't, but we just gave up on the mansion and walked back down to the river (where my cousin and I wanted to frolick).

On the way down, I almost stepped on a snake. My dad was walking first, then me, and then my brother and cousin, and somehow, my dad didn't even see the snake. I chanced to be looking at the ground, and I saw it there, all curled up, and it didn't even move. Still, I shrieked/cried and ran back and hid behind my brother and cousin and made pitiful whimpering sounds. :D

River frolicking time occured, then we left. I got a bottle of mandarin tea at WaWa afterward, and I just got out of the shower. I still need to get over my friend Becka's apartment to feed the cat and water the plants for today, but other than that, I'm free.

I really should read 'Language Myths' for my Humanities Seminar first semester, but it's a really short book, and I have over a month before move-in day. Squee.






Ugh, I cannot stop thinking about that snake. My dad and brother got pictures of it, and I don't even want to look at those.

Ew, what if I had stepped on it?! D:

I just had an epiphany.

'I heart NY' is no longer "I love New York (City)", but "I love Nakajima Yuto." I will forever wear my 'I heart NY' shirt now and know its true meaning.







We will all ignore the fact that said Japanese male is younger than my brother but by only a few weeks SO THERE.







I really am gonna be a cougar when I grow up.

I got up at 11:30AM and immediately left for Towson at 1PM. Me and Laura visited Alyssa at her mom's work (her mom manages an apartment complex), and the three of us wandered around Towson Town Center all day. We got Japanese food and smoothies, and I bought my mom some crazy pens (a magnifying pen and a fan pen) from Brookstone. We also made Laura buy a bathing suit so she could get in the pool at the complex. :D

We did get in the pool (I AM SO TIRED NOW, OMG), and then we went back to the mall and bought these awesome Godiva 'Chocolixir' drinks. @_@ I got dark chocolate raspberry, and it was amazing.

Me and Laura ended up over Caitlin's later; we wanted to watch 'Brokeback Mountain', but Caitlin couldn't get it to work on the secondary TVs, and her parents were watching the main TV. We're going to attempt again tomorrow sometime before I get together with Brooke and Kristen to watch 'Dead Poets' Society' (my favorite movie!) and 'Se7en.'

I also need to somehow watch 'Batman Begins' in preparation for 'The Dark Knight.' :3





I CANNOT STOP LISTENING TO HEY! SAY! JUMP, SOMEONE HELP ME. I AM OVERCOME BY MY LOVE FOR FOREIGN BOYBANDS THAT HAVE DOUBLE-DIGIT AMOUNTS OF MEMBERS. D: D: D:



Also, I am reading 'Catch-22', and I love it.

I had a meeting at the college today to discuss my new major (I am constantly on the prowl for college info. since I am a college n00b, so I jumped at the chance to speak personally with the Interdisciplinary Studies head), and I am so enlightened now, no sarcasm intended. I am very glad I went, even though those five flights of stairs I had to walk alone to get to her office looked way too similar to that scene from 'The Grudge' for my comfort.

ANYWAY. An upperclassman across the hallway heard me discussing my interests during my meeting, and she called me over afterward, and SHE COULD SPEAK FLUENT JAPANESE AND KOREAN. SHE WASN'T ASIAN, EITHER.

I was such an excited n00b. We talked about Japanese music, and Japan itself (she'd been there and plans on moving back), and Otakon and everything.

And before I even met her (when I first trotted down the hallway to find the room where my meeting was to be), she complimented me on my shirt. Then I later discovered that she's into all the Japanese underground street fashion, JOY AND RAPTURE. I WAS APPROVED OF.








So yeah.

WHY CAN I NOT FIND 'QUEER AS FOLK' EPISODES FROM SEASON 2 ON YOUTUBE? UGH.





Looks like I'll be attempting to torrent like I did for season 1; I've even seen most of season 2 (well, seven episodes), and IT TAKES FOREVER FOR A TORRENT TO FINISH.







D: D: D:

In which Alyson talks about her life (or what she likes to deem her life):

( RL ramblings. Because I can. )

Also, DIABEETUS.

So. Panic! at the Disco (never listened to them, but they're big here, apparently) and Super Junior will be performing on the same stage for the MTV Music Awards.





LOLWHUT.




I would be delighted if Hot Topic stocked up on SuJu shirts now, kthnx (I've seen Panic! at the Disco shirts there before, so logically...).

One more step to taking over the world. You go, Super Junior, you go.